The Vigilant Robot

a watchful eye of creative complexity

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I’ve got a lot of goals
and no will to complete them,
a lot of ambition
with no roots to grow a stem,
a future of greatness
but no desire for any gem,
success with no boundaries
just time filled with phlegm,
a life of no meaning
for this bored and angry femme,
fatigue so damn long
but much too weary to hem,
to eternal dark and silence
this, I will not condemn.






Flat Lines and Waves

Some poetry writing:

After life there comes death.
Death, like a sweet fruit—
firm with a light crunch, wet, unsubtle taste,

After death begins life.
Life like a hand abruptly removing the quiet—
forceful and loud, dry, soured awakening.

Digging feet into the ground,
Clawing for the moments before.
Before life,
before death,
before life.

Tightly composed.
Weighing down into the light of darkness.
The light of darkness before life,
before death,
before life.

The light of non conceived masses of being,
of blood that’s blood
and eggs that are eggs,
of truth that doesn’t exist
and breath that is not needed,
of a non-existing existence of nonexistence.

The light of darkness confirms the dark is lightness.
It’s a light of flat-lines in a place of chaos,
of mobility in a space of confinement,
of flame cleansing structure,
and water drowning faith,
of blinding power over-shining within,
of a knowledge over-consumed,
of a whiteness too impure,
of fire consuming all.

We are here.

I Think These Thoughts; Do You Think These Thoughts, Too?

I sit here and have these thoughts, and I wonder, “Do others have the same thoughts as I do?” Thinking these things which are quite unpleasant yet gives me satisfaction to think about. Do others feel satisfaction, too? Satisfied, no. I am not satisfied; that is why I think these thoughts that I do even though unpleasant. I get satisfaction from thinking the unpleasant thoughts, but I am not satisfied. Do others feel unsatisfied, too, even though satisfied thinking these thoughts that I do? If you do not think these thoughts that I do are you satisfied by thinking the thoughts that you do? What if you are unsatisfied? Do you think pleasant thoughts to keep you unsatisfied or pleasant thoughts for satisfaction? Do you think unpleasant thoughts for dissatisfaction and not think like I do or think like I do and feel satisfied? I think we think the same, but do not think the same and are unsatisfied yet receive satisfaction, too. We relish in our dissatisfaction until we are satisfied with our dissatisfaction so we keep thinking these unpleasant thoughts in hopes they will be pleasant some day so that we may receive satisfaction and be satisfied by thinking these pleasant thoughts for satisfaction. What do you think? Do you think these thoughts that I do? Do you think these thoughts that I do not? Do you not think thoughts that I do not think or think all thoughts? I sit here and think these thoughts and wonder if you think these thoughts, too.